I think this may be an interesting post to most of the people, so please read on.

The question on the title, is a question that I've been asking myself for a really long time. The "thing" that I'm struggling to give up is my sexuality as a bisexual person.

YES, I'm bisexual, it's also a fact that not many know and I truly find it a really heavy burden. I've been hurt many times because of homosexual relationships, and since not many know about my sexuality, then of course I couldn't find anyone to talk to and it's just been accumulating in my heart, making it so painful, hurtful and stressful.

Though I've got a few friends who also have the same sexuality as I do, and we also used to talk to each other about matters like this, but it seems that our friendship is getting loose, and I'm starting to lose trust and confidence in them.

Lately, I've also come under the influence of a branch out of Christian who called themselves Jehovah's Witnesses. A friend of mine who's a Jehovah's witness is giving me lessons in bible studies, and we've come across a verse in the bible stating clearly that homosexuality is not accepted among Christians.

Due to all these arising matters, I've tried hard to give up in homosexual relationships, but... I know, there's always a "but"... But I just can't let go of what previously happened to me in a homosexual relationship, I miss it so much that I need it desperately.

So with all the matters above, I've really struggled, in fact still struggling, for such a long time with this problem. I really don't know what should be done...